It was a clear Sunday morning. I was awake because of something that scares my thought the whole day. I cleaned up my bed and started to fix our room I studied for my final exam.As usual "psycholinguistic guessing game". Perplexing thoughts are in my head. I fell asleep. I don't know. But studying really leads me to sleeping, Today was a very long day again like yesterday. My mind was bombarded with lots of thoughts. "WHY IS IT THAT". Life was really unfair. I was again pissed off and I wanted to come home to Batangas. I am missing my mom so much. I cry whenever I hear those insights from that person. I know I owe her a lot for taking care of me here. But why does she need to say harsh words to us. I was at awe when my cousin opened up to me that thing. I really really stopped myself from crying, those feeling were just so dark and so mean. I may be fallacious for saying "Hell be with her" but I really can't stop myself. It's pathetic! I was really disgruntled by those harsh lines from her.I have feelings too. Okay! I wanted to dispel all those hard feelings of me because tomorrow is finals. She is a professional, I guess she must have ethics.
I continued to be in my mundane though I am feeling so bad, I treated her just like before. I will not relinquish our relationship, she is still my family, in my final verdict I guess it is all just because she has lots of problems at present. I respected her and I will try to give all my understanding and patience in dealing with her. She is so shallow. Good thing I am not that shaky.
This day was really very uncompromising. I can feel that problems are ubiquitous. But I know that I am still a very lucky girl to have such small problems. I have a happy life. I JUST HAVE THE SIMPLEST PROBLEMS.
Mixed blessing..
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